God is not Finished with me Yet
Introduction:
As I look back on my life, I’m humbled by the journey I’ve walked—one that has not always been clear or easy, but one that God has used to shape me in ways I could never have imagined. There were years I wasn’t walking with God. In fact, there were years when I was living a life far from Him—lost, broken, and running from the truth.
I’ve been homeless, I’ve battled addiction, and I’ve lived in ways that today I know are contrary to God’s will. I was a sinner in some of the worst ways. But even in those dark years, God had a plan for me, a plan that wasn’t finished when I was in my worst moments. His grace reached into my life when I was at my lowest, and now, I find myself standing here, testifying to that same grace.
My Task:
I’m reminded of the words from Acts 20:24, where the apostle Paul says, “However, I consider my life worth nothing to me; my only aim is to finish the race and complete the task the Lord Jesus has given me—the task of testifying to the good news of God’s grace.”
That task, the task of sharing the good news of God’s grace, is a calling I take to heart. For years, I didn’t believe I had any worth to be used by God. But now I know, with every fiber of my being, that God never gave up on me. He took all the years of struggle, all the pain, all the sin—and He used it to prepare me for a task: to share His love with those who need it most.
Why I Continue:
I’ve had conversations with people—some I may have only known for a short time—people looking for direction, for truth, for meaning. It strikes me deeply because in their questions, I see a reflection of my own past: the searching, the yearning for something real. It’s pain I know all too well because I’ve lived it.
And it’s in those moments I’m reminded that my life isn’t about me anymore. It’s about showing others that God’s grace is greater than our pasts, than our mistakes, than our pain. God doesn’t just redeem us from the things we’ve done; He uses those very experiences to reach others.
A Quiet Ministry:
I’ve come to realize that my ministry is not one of grand speeches or public recognition. It’s not about being perfect or having it all together. My ministry is in the moments when someone is struggling, when someone feels they have no worth, when someone needs to know they are not alone. And I can say with full conviction—I know what it’s like to feel lost. I’ve been in that place, and I know that God’s grace is the only way out.
Conclusion:
I may not have the same energy or ability that I once had, but the task remains the same: to reflect God’s grace in the lives of those who need to know that no one is beyond redemption. Whether I am talking to one person or many, the message is clear—God has a plan for you, and He can use even your darkest years for His glory.
I don’t do this work because I feel obligated, or because it’s a duty I must fulfill. I do it because my heart simply can’t help it. It’s not a decision I weigh—it’s a natural response to the grace that changed my life. My heart reaches for people the way God once reached for me, and I find myself offering love and acceptance without even thinking about it. It’s just who I’ve become in Him.
As long as there are people who need God’s grace, I will be here—just as I am, with all the scars, all the lessons learned, and all the love I’ve received. God is not finished with me yet, and as long as He gives me breath, I will continue to share His love—not because I must, but because He has shaped my heart to do so without hesitation. Not because I am worthy, but because He is worthy.